What do we miss when we stop operating in surrender? Have you ever stopped to think about that? If that sentence makes absolutely zero sense to you, let me expound.
God so wants for us to operate in a realm of healing and wholeness. He knows what we need to get there and could very easily just reach down and fix it. However, he doesn’t force us into anything. While he wants these things for us, he wants us to want them for ourselves. Rather than force us into change that will result in healing, he awaits our surrender of the behavior of situation to allow him to orchestrate said change.
Now, in my own life there have been times that I’m in a transitional place. A place in which the decisions I make today will either work for me or against me in the Kingdom. Have I always made the right choices? Nope. Sometimes I so desperately choose incorrectly that it’s as though I undo some of the painstaking hard work God has it in place (ie self sabotage).
You know what I love about God? Even when we turn away. Even when we choose poorly. Even when we downright do the wrong thing. He never stands over us and scolds or looks for punishments to hand out. He loves us. He loves us so much that while he wants the best for us, he allows us to forge our own path.He wants our hearts to be so engulfed with his that the path we forge will be right along beside the path of his choosing. Yet when we choose poorly, he will wait for our recognition of our poor choices and then will help get us back where we need to be.
If you find yourself in a place right now that you don’t recognize yourself and/or the surroundings that you have chosen…please know you can never be too far gone. You could never outrun the love of Jesus. If you’re thinking “You don’t understand what I’ve done. I need to get my life together first then I can come to church/Jesus” hear me right now: you are being lied to. God already knows. God already sees. He loves you in spite of your failures. You can’t fix you. Only he can. Trust me, I’ve done plenty. I’ve run my fair share. I’ve made some plain old dumb decisions. He loves me anyway. He loves you too. Let go. Turn it back over to God and acknowledge that he knows more than you and you don’t have it all together. Allow him to meet you right in your brokenness and begin to restore.
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