Aha!

I often wake up and a song or a verse will be in my spirit. It never fails to be that said song/verse will be useful to me that day or one shortly after. About two weeks ago, I woke up with Proverbs 16:9 in my head.

“Many are the plans in a man’s heart but it
is the Lord who orders his steps.”

I sang that night at a group I volunteer with and shared it before I sang but it didn’t leave me. I thought on it for a few days but eventually tucked it back away in my heart.

Today. Oh today. Today has been a day that has tried me. As I laid here, pouring out my heart to the Lord and just trying to process all of the disappointment I’m feeling, I began thinking about all of the plans I have for myself and what I want certain things to look like and began crying out and there it was again. Proverbs 16:9. Two weeks ago, the Lord placed it in my spirit. He knew. He knew there’d be today. He knew I’d lie here and need to have a moment that I could be reminded. I can plan all I want. I can build castles and empires and have goals that don’t amount to a hill of beans. If I forget he orders my steps, he holds my tomorrow, he has THE plan…then all my plans are just dumb.

It doesn’t make realizations like today any less terrible. It doesn’t make me cry less when something I wanted isn’t something I am able to achieve. It just serves to remind me I have to align myself to the right architect’s plan. My absolute favorite bible verse is Jeremiah 29:11.
“For I know the plans I have for you,”
declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you
and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope
and a future.”