You know…I’ve shared so many things about myself in so many different avenues that I never remember who knows what. So if this is a repeat for you, apologies.
Anyone who knows me or has heard pieces of my testimony knows that I sing. I sing in church and sometimes for classes at my children’s school. Singing isn’t easy for me. It’s a place that I have to continue to turn over to the Lord constantly. Over the years of my adult life, the Lord has had to show me things and heal places in me that have impacted me negatively and encouraged me to hold myself in an inferior thought pattern.
I often struggle with compliments from other people because while I pour into other people, it’s difficult for me to believe good things others say of me. What’s weird is that this isn’t true in all areas, just the ones I’m uncertain of myself.
I often find myself in a group of people who are getting compliments from someone (like our praise team) and I immediately deflect to thinking that the compliments aren’t for me because I’m not loud enough or as _____ as this person or that one, so I just smile and allow others to say “thank you.”
Sometimes the Lord rebukes me and my stinking thinking. This happened on my way home tonight and I had to put myself in check (and it’s not the first time) and really think about why I do that.
When we forget to press in to all the God says about who we are, we rely only on our own thoughts and emotions (😱) and that will 100% make you live in comparison. Comparison is a thief of joy. Each time that I forget or deny who God says I am, each time I choose to accept a lie about my worth rather than allow the truth of the Holy Spirit to be the loudest voice inside of me, I pain the very heart of God.
When I accept that I am “less than,” I immediately devalue myself. But when I realize I have a Heavenly Father who created me so uniquely and equipped me with giftings and skill sets to reach people that only I can reach, I can’t help but see the value that God sees in each of us. When we consciously make an effort to remember that our giftings and anointing aren’t about us, we keep our focuses where they need to be. When we’re focused on being a willing vessel for the Holy Spirit to use, in any capacity the Lord has equipped us, we allow Him to operate in and through us and manifest the value He knew was there all along.
So…if you find yourself in a place of feeling “less than” or unworthy. I challenge you to begin asking yourself why you feel that way. Ask yourself “why” five times (and answer honestly). It’ll help you open the rabbit hole to the truth/root of it. Begin to talk that out with the Lord and allow him to heal that place in you and remind you just how incredibly loved and special you are to him and his Kingdom. Begin to dig into verses around who God says you are. I promise you…you won’t be disappointed. ❤️
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